the coldest winter...

the leaves have fallen
the seasons changed
and now
i am so cold...
as though all the molecules in my body
have turned to ice
stuck
frozen solid
like all the warmth i did have is gone
all the securities i found
my strength
the confidence
have left...
and since then i've been so cold
no reason to speak
or laugh or smile
i rather lay
cold
wrapped in sheets
tucked in
snug
trying to ease the pains that remain...
gazing directly into a blank ceiling
slowly leering into space
in the efforts to comprehend the situation at hand
imagining how
to fill this void that persists within
i am so cold
more than i have ever been
and it has been the coldest winter
without him....